Looking back for the last time .

" Time to sort them out again , "

January - Brand new life . Already form four and turns out it is not a honeymoon year . Plus , on January there's a lot of crying . I'm not gonna talk about it , I don't want to offend anybody . Anyway , had a LDDS performance which was super cool and unforgettable cause we perform about Twilight and Hockey . Didn't anyone record the whole bombastic performance ? But I do prefer the afternoon session's cause the whole scene was completed . I was the second hand Edward and we're planning to do New Moon . I might be Jacob Black ( Wink - wink ) . Other than that , went to Penang for only a day and met this one very good looking " orang putih " . My family and I even created a new tradition . Every birthdays dinner will be celebrated at Chillis .

February - I think this is the month I got the name Disimbs by Iki . He kinda beautified Simba , so Simbs . What else ? Ah , new friends and new classmates . Lots of new classmates and they're awesome and we've got a very loving History teacher . Is it the right word ?

March - Pauline won ! Woohoo . On March , it was more to sports cause I visited Niner's Sports Day as well . Try to be supportive , you know . And I'm a big fan of If I Were A Boy song . Haha , kidding . I started asking my friends if they were born as a boy or a girl what would their parents named them . Its fun though , some names I find it very beautiful . Mostly girls can answer it but the guys not so much , you have to ask the parents . Sheesh .

April - Lots of things happened . My brother had a tonsil operation and it was my birthday . My birthday was on a school day and my muffin got stolen and my brother got a laptop on my freaking birthday . I started hating monkeys ever since that muffin incident . I didn't get the chance to taste them as well . Oh yeah , had my first argument with Ama . See , girls again . Problematic magnet . I think I missed out something . Right , I got involved with this dude that I used to like . It was unexpected that he suddenly called .

May - The month my grandma past away and Nyaie was hospitalized . Mom had to stay at the hospital about three days . I remembered one happy moment , Iylia gave me a tattoo . Haha .

June -My very first night live performance . It was quite embarrassing cause almost all of them were staring . Am , Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett past away that month . Had a barbecue party at Iylia's crib and it was simbastic . The food was great .

July - What happened on July ? Cheer competition ? But I will never forget July . I had a silly dream that I was playing psp with Sam Bunkface . Hahahaha .

August - August , August . We lost Yasmin Ahmad . And Aunty Jah knows a lot about her . She end up telling my Mom and I almost everything .

September - The best month ever :) Words can't describe that month at all . Eid was alright . Not that dull .

October - I found my official second home . Amcorp Mall , tons of unique books and less people . Haha . And and the most awesome moment , I finally got a sore throat . Four years I had to wait and I'm still struggling to get it back .

November - Dissected a frog and it wasn't that repulsive . Just the smell . Kell held a party and it was simbastic . I went back early but it was worth it . We dance until we sweat . Oh not forgetting , I hoped too much on this human being . Thought it could change things bit by bit . It did , and it really did . My mistake for hoping too much .

December - What a dull month but its alright . Sylars and I planned tons of things and we're still seeing each other before school reopens . One thing about myself , I let people step on my head so easily .

- Overall ?

Try Something New For Two Thousand Ten .

" Just a suggestion , "


1 . Early in the morning , I escorted Hairi to have his breakfast . I had to fast today and yeah the last day and and I'll be done . Woohoo , I'm excited . On our way , he was busy using the mobile web . He checked out my blog and he suddenly suggested that I should delete my blog . I thought he was kidding but he was seriously serious about it . Wonder what the heck happened to him just . Probably the morning mood .


2 . There's more , I should start a new blog . I told him I deleted almost half of my two thousand eight post and he was not satisfied . He wants all . Even Little Miss Tyara agreed with him . That made me faint , literally . I wanted to give a whack on his head to be frank . Thank goodness , I didn't want to spoil my morning mood . Furthermore , Simba is coming . I should ask him .

3 . Again there's more , on our way back . He came across a lot of blogs and tumblrs when I was away last weekend . It gave him inspiration and determination . I have to admit , a lot of people are using tumblr nowadays . Sigh , saya buntu .

- Garu kepala .

A boy and a girl .

" Hahaha , banyak post today , "


1 . On our way home , my brother , myself , his number one fan and his number one fan's cousin were just sitting quietly in the car . I was too busy checking out my new books . Her cousin's is a shemale or the p word in Malay . He lives in Bangsar and Ily lives in Damansara . Ily wanted my brother to borrow the car for a while . Ily cousin's was driving , Ily sat next to him and my brother and I sat at the back seat .

2 . They started quarrelling minutes later . Who gets to be alone with my brother . He wanted to send Ily first then he has the chance to spend time with him . My jaw dropped when he said , he could drop me off to the nearest LRT station and go home by myself . I was like what the hell ? It was getting dark .

3 . Jadi , bertengkarlah mereka . They stopped the car , my brother and I suggested we gave them the privacy . Eventually , they argue outside . And he stated " Tulah Boy , kenapa engkau kena handsome sangat , "


4 . Watakuan ? He is not gay -.-

- A boy and a girl arguing over one boy ?

Yipikaye .

" We'll be moving when you graduate from school , "


1 . Finally persuaded my Dad not to move . Aku dah kusut fikir kalau pindah , cari kawan baru atau alami zaman keseorangan . Sedih pula bila aku sendiri membacanya . Namun , aku akan tetap berpindah rumah . Cari rumah bawa , satu tingkat . Dad berkata mungkin di Bangi . Sigh , aku tak boleh bayangkan duduk di rumah baru apa tah lagi sekolah .

2 . Rasa tak nak pindah actually cause dah kira dekat tengah bandar Kuala Lumpur . Semua kawasan dekat . Setiawangsa , Wangsa Maju . What else ? Haa , the highway Duke . I kinda wished I could just crushed this house with a single punch . Then build my own house . Keep on dreaming , Simbs . I went to visit Simba yesterday . We talked about a few things while watching Slam Dunk . He bites a lot now .

3 . I asked him one question .

" Have you ever feel wrong about someone and felt that you hoped too much from that someone ,"
Eye to eye . Some people may think its scary but he licked my nose . Trying to figure it out whether is it a yes or a no . I remembered that he can shook his head when me and him were webcaming . He kept on trying to scratch the camera and putting his paw on the camera . Guess he was shocked that he has a twin or never lay eyes on other cats .

4 . Maybe I made the wrong decisions . Probably , I don't know . What's the point looking back now ? I remembered one thing I asked that person's situation about three times but nothing crack . My limit on asking is three times , if it won't crack then I'll stop . I won't ask any more . Oh , all these crap are related to the question that I asked Simba . You know what , I had a dream two nights ago and I screamed and covered with sweats . Gasp . I got scared , terrified by it .

5 . Plus went to Amcorp just now . I see tons of new books . Thanks Gran Gran for the extra money . Good thing Mom was not back yet when I arrived home .

- What could it be ?

One Night Only .

" Look look , "


I was on my way to dinner with my friends . Reunion actually . Its been so long , we didn't spend time together so that night was the night . Old memoirs will be coming back for sure . In the car , I sat on the back quietly . Wriggling with my fingers , key chains and everything that can be wriggled . Mitch was beside me . We don't really talk much but he was nice when we first we met . The rain drizzled slowly and it was cold . How could I not bring my jacket ?

The restaurant was quite far and its on top of the hill . The scenery was nice and cold at the same time . The rain was pouring heavily now . My friends and I practically ran up the stairs and we were all wet . My hair was a mess and I need the bathroom . Joey insisted that we meet up with the others first . You know , kiss kiss hug hug or xoxo . Its been two years since I last saw all of them . We only see each other from a distant or just contact on the Internet . It was great , I was kinda disappointed that Peter wasn't there . I wanna meet him the most cause I have tons of things to share with him and I did had a crush on him but it didn't turn out so well .

I placed my sling back on my table , by the time I sat and look forward . The boy I love sat across my table . We've been planning to meet up for so many times but it never happened . Now he was right there in front of me with his his friends . All boys . I couldn't take my eyes of a him . He was eating and I surveyed his friends . One of them noticed that I was staring . I swallowed my saliva . I panicked a bit . I asked Joey where's the bathroom . He escorted me to the bathroom . Inside the toilet , I screamed without a voice coming out from my mouth . My heart was beating fast and I keep on wondering what to do . His friends are there and he's eating . Is it possible for me to approach him ?

I took a deep deep breath before stepping out the bathroom . Joey asked me what's wrong and I explained it to him . He suggested that I should just give him a call or message him . I was nervous of course . When I'm back at the table , he was done . I was thinking , maybe I shouldn't approach him . Just stare at him as long as I could . That'll be enough . But ...

It wouldn't . I was one hundred percent sure . He didn't went back . He went up the hills located beside the restaurant . I texted him asking him where he is , he asked me back . My fingers shivers as it types . He asked me to come out and meet him . Again more deep breaths , inhaled and exhaled . Joey wished me good luck . His friends were there at first then they were gone . My voice trembled when I said hey . He was perfect in front of him . His face , his smile . While me ? I could feel my cheeks burning red . He had to leave few minutes later . I wanted to cherish that moment but my body was so stiff . He held my hand and he hugged me . I wrapped my arms around him and held it tightly . Tears were dwelling up . He whispered I love you before he let go .

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Looks like the table in front of me is full . I know one of them .. Yikes , better focus on eating . Mom needs me at ten . After I paid my dish , I hurried to the guys on top of the hill . I got a texted from her which rarely happens . She texted kinda early . Michael quickly told me about a girl staring at me when I was eating just now . I was shocked and felt stupid how didn't I notice her . I wanted to run and see her but that wouldn't be cool . Just calm down . I slowly went to the hill and try to catch a glimpse of her . I saw her long hair and looks like she's having fun . Should I ask her to come and see me ?

Should I ?

Yes , I should . I texted her to come out . I pretend to look at the guys as they left me alone . When I heard she said hey . I was mesmerized and speechless . We shook hands , I could feel a crook smile coming . I asked stupid questions but she answered it like they weren't stupid at all . My mouth felt so heavy when I told her I got to go . Her expression completely change but she smiled a bit , trying to hide it . I held her hand and hugged her . The smell and scent was nice . It made me so comfortable , I even whispered I love you to her . She got goosebumps when I said that . I slowly let her go